wow...where does the time go????

I have really slacked at posting! I was going to be better about it but man oh man time goes by fast. A lot has happened in the last few months and since my last post. I am working like a crazy woman, yet can't quite seem to catch up on anything, hmmmmm. I will try to recap the last few months the best I can. Kennedy has started working at Arby's I am so proud at how responsible and mature she is. She has been saving money like crazy so she can play Viper( A Provo, Utah volleyball club) thanks to my parents offering to match what she saved Kennedy was able to pay for all but $150.00 of it! The club goes from Dec. to May and she will play approx 76 matches. It is so fun to watch her play and enjoy the sport! I am so proud of Bailee, she has to pick up the slack with both Kennedy and I working, she is a really good "mommy" to Jarrett and I rarely have to worry about them! Bailee is having a great year at school so far. I can't believe how fast they are all growing up, it is amazing to me because I just don't feel very old. :) Jarrett is Jarrett he is one little boy with a ton of energy and personality. I am so lucky to have the kids I have. We still haven't really got in a grove since the divorce but we are surviving...barely. I AM TOTALLY LOVING MY LIFE! We celebrated Kennedy's 16th birthday. Thanks to My Sisters Tiff & Kris I was able to take 11 of us up to Salt Lake City and we went to Castle of Chaos then spent the night at Tiff and Aaron's in North Salt Lake, the next day we went shopping at the Layton Hills mall and that night we went to Nightmare mansion! I had a blast with Kennedy, her friends, and my sisters...I can't believe she is 16. Listening to the girls chatter makes my day, they aren't jaded yet, all their hopes and dreams and boys keeps me young and almost makes me wish I could go back and do so many things different. I borrowed Hansen's suburban and we jammed out to many songs and lots of noise as teenage girls try to out talk each other. haha! It was very memorable and I hope they had a great time. The next "big" thing in my life is Burke. I pretty much gave up on the idea of finding anyone that was "normal". I tell you what, loneliness is not a place I like to be and although I have had plenty of dates, and a couple guys I thought were great, nothing just seemed to work. I resigned myself to believe that I was going to be alone....who knows I still might be, but life is looking up! Since the middle of August when we started talking, I just knew there was something different about this one. It is so hard for me to believe I deserve anyone, much less a good looking, easy to talk to, easy going, hard working, fun to be with, guy that makes me laugh on a daily basis. Its been a roller coaster of emotions.Mostly really good, the only thing not so good has been my insecurities and worry. We have been to a few concerts....Gary Allan, Brad Paisley with Darius Rucker which were an absolute blast!!! Since September we have spent very few days apart. He is so good with my kids and the absolutely adore and respect him. I don't know what will happen but I have learned to trust and love again, which is huge for me considering the gigantic walls I have built up around myself and my heart. I am looking forward to a week off and spending the Thanksgiving holiday with my sisters and hopefully my mom, dad, and grandma! Mom has been so sick since the first of October and I worry about her. I hope she will feel better soon! It is so nice having family within an hour of me and I don't know what I would do without them!!! I am so loving life. I am not going to ruin it with what has been going on with Cary but lets just say rehab(again), non payment of child support and alimony, he's not running his agency he is selling cars, and trying to trap me in a house I can't afford...other then that life is grand! I am job hunting and trying to get things in order so I can hopefully keep the kids here in our small Utah town that I love and I call home. Well its not a detailed post but kind of a recap of last few months....Good Day All!!