George Strait - The Breath You Take [ New Video + Download ]

I love this song right now, to me this song hits home for me!!!! Life is hard right now, not just for me but for so many I love! I am so lost right now and don't really know how to find my way back to a real, happy, content, truthful place! I watch my kids struggle to find their place and today as I talked to Kennedy about meeting her future step mom my heart breaks for all the sad reality we have to live! I am sad that an addiction and poor choices have come in between our eternal family, although I try to stay positive and know that everything happens for a reason, I really question on days like today, "why us?" "what's out there for me?" I am so alone and spinning my wheels, and there is no worse feeling then like your all alone! On top of that to try to explain what is going on in a positive way to the kids, when all I want to do is scream, "I don't know why he decided to choose a bottle and a woman, over us" Oh just give me the strength to get through today, let me worry about tomorrow, tomorrow! I am so fortunate in so many ways! Yet, I am scared, I thought I found love again, I guess not so I am heartbroken, I don't know how to support my kids, and being a failure at yet another thing doesn't appeal to me right now! One of those days where I wonder how and if I will make it through this! Also since the divorce was finalized and Cary moved out 18 months ago I am starting to get the "I really want to be a part of a couple" bug again, even though I am no where near ready, I just want to take care of and be taken care of! How do you learn patience with so many questions and wanting someone/something that doesn't want you back! One of those, poor me days, but I will deal and move on, just a bad day! I do love this song and hope I can let it inspire me to take stock in what is really important!